Prologue

 

Once upon a time there was a woman who believed in love and happily ever after. She thought falling in love was about finding the love of your life all while having the time of your life, and she was right, but just not in the ways she expected. She had the time of her life for sure but she did not realize that falling into love was the same as fighting your way out of hate. That woman was me, I guess I expected to meet the man of my dreams and everything be instantly perfect but to my surprise that did not happen. Although, I did eventually meet the man of my dreams, it just seemed that I was not a part of his dream. I did not know what to do, I had already imagined my entire life with this person and I had begun building my life in preparation to be with him. I had never felt for anyone in any of my romantic experiences the way I felt for him. But he rejected me, I felt unattractive and devastated, I almost wanted to die. So, what was I to do at a point when my life so suddenly changed? 

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I needed answers to why the love of my life did not choose me. I could barely deal with the feelings of not being accepted so I did what any mature woman in my state of mind would do. I hated myself.  I lost my dignity and tried to stay in his life even after knowing he did not choose me. I began to think I was never going to end up with anyone that loved me, but with the blessing of Heaven that ended up being untrue.

 

It took a while to get over the fact that I had put so much into a relationship all while knowing I was not getting much out of it. I then came to realize the truth is I got much more than I expected. I got the opportunity to see that I could not change anyone, I could not control anyone but I had to fix me. But what was my problem? 

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I went on dates and no one kept my attention. I hung out with friends but that did not work either. I even went on a date with an ex I once really liked but still did not work out. I had searched for love in everyone I thought had potential and although I had great relationships, there was always something missing. The only solution that came to work was finding me and falling in love with myself. For my particular story, this is when my Self Love Journey really took off at full speed.

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